What Might Have Been

I know it's unhealthy to think about the "what ifs" of every relationship we have left behind, but it's hard not to. Sometimes life doesn't make much sense. Sometimes relationships end for very valid reasons. But what about when those valid reasons still don't make sense in the scope of the relationship?

When relationships don't make sense to anyone else but those involved, it's hard to justify it ending because of reasons that do make sense. I realize I'm talking in circles, but again... I'm making sense to me. I just need to stop thinking so much and just leave that behind... leave him behind. But I don't want to. I do, but I don't. I just need to look ahead and leave him in my past.

Undo It

Have you met someone that you really thought was special? You really knew in your heart that they were the perfect fit for you? A person that was right, that it didn't make sense, but it did.

I met a guy who made perfect sense to me and now things have just dissolved. I don't know where that happiness went or why. I was living in the moment for today being happy with what we had. Knowing in my heart that our situation wasn't great and that the cards were stacked against us. But also knowing that because we had that connection, we would be okay. It stopped being okay.

I want to undo my feelings, if I can please. Does someone know how to make that happen? I want to forget about what we had and the fact that it was perfect for us... because it doesn't make sense. I want to undo how special I felt. And I want to undo the connection that we had. And I want to undo the hurt I feel now.

How do I undo it?